New Years Post from 2007

As usual, I was going through my old emails, postings, etc. and I found the note that I wrote at the end of 2007. Now anyone who knew me during 2007 knew that I went through a hell of a time. I moved from Boston to Florida to San Francisco. I had multiple jobs and went through the entire spectrum of emotions that I am capable of feeling: From complete and total rock bottom devastation to indescribable ecstasy (not in the creepy way). Anyway, I re-read the note and felt compelled to share cause it is one of the few things that I have ever written that I am really proud of and when I read it, it reminds me of how far I've come, all I have to be grateful for and how bad things were at one point. I would equate how I felt when I wrote it to being someone who is blindfolded trying to make their way through a maze, and at the end of the maze taking the blind fold off and seeing everything they just went through completely clearly. There is something very zen about the whole thing that I really enjoy. Anyway...

So there goes 2007 and I can't help but think about everything I've lost, learned, felt, experienced, and accomplished. I learned a lot more about life and myself this year than ever before. It is true that you don't know your true strength until you are forced to put it to the test, and I now know that I can handle far more than I ever thought I was capable of.

It's been a whirlwind of a year. Four different jobs, three different states, two major moves across the country later, I look back at the people that have come and gone in my life this year. There have been some major surprises, some were beyond amazing and some were devastatingly crushing. It's been the year of my highest highs and lowest lows. I've built new fantastic friendships and lost some people as well. I've been more betrayed than I ever have before in my life and I've also had the best thing that has ever happened to me come as a result of that.

Different states. Different states of mind. Changing jobs. Changing addresses. Changing friends. Changing lives and just changing. I'm constantly changing.

This year taught me I have a lot more to be thankful for than I ever realized before. My extremely supportive family, my friends that were there for me when I was at my own personal rock bottom…My blessings have been countless and I have become more of the person I really want to be, and it feels good. So much has happened this year, and I am so grateful for it all.

Thank you, 2007 for making me who I am. So here's to 2008 and all of the surprises, experiences, and lessons to come…I'm ready! :)