New Years Post from 2007

As usual, I was going through my old emails, postings, etc. and I found the note that I wrote at the end of 2007. Now anyone who knew me during 2007 knew that I went through a hell of a time. I moved from Boston to Florida to San Francisco. I had multiple jobs and went through the entire spectrum of emotions that I am capable of feeling: From complete and total rock bottom devastation to indescribable ecstasy (not in the creepy way). Anyway, I re-read the note and felt compelled to share cause it is one of the few things that I have ever written that I am really proud of and when I read it, it reminds me of how far I've come, all I have to be grateful for and how bad things were at one point. I would equate how I felt when I wrote it to being someone who is blindfolded trying to make their way through a maze, and at the end of the maze taking the blind fold off and seeing everything they just went through completely clearly. There is something very zen about the whole thing that I really enjoy. Anyway...

So there goes 2007 and I can't help but think about everything I've lost, learned, felt, experienced, and accomplished. I learned a lot more about life and myself this year than ever before. It is true that you don't know your true strength until you are forced to put it to the test, and I now know that I can handle far more than I ever thought I was capable of.

It's been a whirlwind of a year. Four different jobs, three different states, two major moves across the country later, I look back at the people that have come and gone in my life this year. There have been some major surprises, some were beyond amazing and some were devastatingly crushing. It's been the year of my highest highs and lowest lows. I've built new fantastic friendships and lost some people as well. I've been more betrayed than I ever have before in my life and I've also had the best thing that has ever happened to me come as a result of that.

Different states. Different states of mind. Changing jobs. Changing addresses. Changing friends. Changing lives and just changing. I'm constantly changing.

This year taught me I have a lot more to be thankful for than I ever realized before. My extremely supportive family, my friends that were there for me when I was at my own personal rock bottom…My blessings have been countless and I have become more of the person I really want to be, and it feels good. So much has happened this year, and I am so grateful for it all.

Thank you, 2007 for making me who I am. So here's to 2008 and all of the surprises, experiences, and lessons to come…I'm ready! :)

Hot Mess

So there is no feeling quite like learning about the events of your previous weekend through pictures posted on the internet. Due to the fact that last weekend, I apparently thought that I was a 300lb man and drank accordingly, I was able to experience this feeling first hand.

I woke up on Saturday morning after 'time traveling' a.k.a. blacking out and immediately texted my friend Priscilla to ask her to recap the events of the night. She was able to fill me in with some of the details but she had done her own fair share of time traveling as well and wasn't that much of a help. I said that I wished we had a camera following us around so we knew what we did, and then we agreed that in the future we would try to alternate our black outs so the next day we would be able to piece together the previous nights festivities.

Well fast forward a week and wish granted...

Priscilla texts me to let me know that the band we had gone to see had posted pictures that we were in on their website. Now I don't remember going to this particular bar in the first place, much less any behavior I might have been exhibiting there, so my immediate reaction was one of sheer terror. Priscilla emailed me the first a few pictures. Curiously in one of the pictures she sent to me, I appeared to have my arm around an unidentified young mans shoulder. I sent her a message.

"Uhh, did I make out with that guy that I'm in the picture with?"

"Yes!"

"I have no recollection of that. You didn't feel compelled to mention this to me before?"

Obviously after learning this new piece of information, I went on the website to try to find a picture of the guys face to see how thick my beer goggles were. Though I was unsuccessful in finding any picture that actually identified my suitor, I did stumble across one where we were mid-face suck in the back of it. Due to the nature of this whole debacle, i have temporarily given myself the nickname "Whorey McJustaskingforacoldsore".

I'd like to say I've learned my lessons but, hey, lets be serious, its Friday, I'm going to happy hour and I am incapable of learning my lessons the first time. And life is a lot more interesting because of it.